The greatest risk any of us will take is to be seen as we are
We now live in a world of perfect images. We publicise our lives on social media with content of our choosing, leaving out the unattractive parts of our day to portray that we are living the PICTURE PERFECT life. But for everyone else looking at these images PARANOIA ensues.
When it comes to our phones and tablets we are a generation of online socialites.
For some, social media is a form of escapism.
MAKEUP IS MY REAL LIFE INSTAGRAM FILTER
When I want to wear less makeup or take it off I can’t always stop socialising so my behaviour instantly changes:
AVOID EYE CONTACT
If I’m not looking at them, then they can’t see me!
I keep moving, or carry on with what I am doing to avoid stopping for a face to face conversation
I don’t want to draw attention to myself by speaking
SHARP & IRRITABLE
I become quite hostile to prevent people from wanting to be around me
I avoid contact with people completely and only go out in public if absolutely necessary
I avoid having my picture taken at social occasions and when photographing a memory for myself, I keep my back to the camera.
There have been many instances where there would be a knock at the door and instead of answering, I would pretend that I was not home or call out that I couldn’t come to the door.
It is a horrible feeling to knowingly let someone wait on the other side of the door for you; when really you want to answer. And all because of a few spots holding you hostage.
Of course I realise that I am not at the centre of everyones universe (wait, what?) and they probably couldn’t give a damn about the condition of my skin. But even so, I cannot seem to get past my insecurities. I want to look flawless and fabulous all of the time!
It’s so exhausting.